I hope your week has started with good vibes, good energy and more blessings!
WOW.
It's actually been two months since I last blogged, I don't know how I allowed this to happen but it's happened. I was looking to take a break for about a week and then one week became two months, oh how time flies. Anyways I just wanted to tell you that I am back for this one post and then I will be taking my step back simply because I have accepted I am not 100% and I go by the motto you need to be 100, to give 100.
I love humans and I live by the policy of honesty, I will not lie to everyone and I certainly won't lie to myself and state that I am 100% when I am not and I respect everyone enough to know when it's best to cater to myself so I am able to come back and cater to more people stronger and wiser.
I feel a lot of us go through life dodging the simple question of 'how are you?'
Ask yourself that question and tell yourself your honest answer. why? because you deserve the truth.
Those 3 words are the most hard hitting words any one can ever face, why? because reality kicks in, your reality will kick in. We are at a stage in life when the world of social media has taken over and if you're not okay, you have to hide it but my brothers and sisters, I am writing to you to help you understand in order for you to be okay, you need to accept that you're not.
Not everyone will relate to this right now, some people will relate today, some will relate tomorrow but that doesn't matter, all that matters is someone will read it and accept their current situation and accept that they're not okay. If you know someone who is not okay today please send them this because they need to understand that sometimes we need to breakdown to break through. Do you know what? it took someone out of my comfort zone to tell me that I am not okay, I was blind to it, I didn't want to accept it but if you have someone in your life that has accepted that you're not okay, let them in because through acceptance is progress.
Recently I had a huge stumble, a stumble of faith within myself and self belief, not only did I lose myself but I gave up on my self, I broke down - Now I am not writing this blog post to tell you about my hardships, I am writing to you so you can accept and understand that it's okay not to be okay, many times we lie to ourselves and that is so deadly, deceiving ourselves into thinking we are okay, every single day you lie stating you are okay and the day you break you break HARD because you allowed it to build, build and build.
I feel many times people don't expect me to cry, break and feel pain because I am the motivational speaker, speaking greatness into existence and speaking life unto others but during this time I had to really start speaking life into myself. I was broken mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually, the feeling of numbness is something I have never felt before, the feeling of confusion, depression, anxiety, hatred and lack of faith were also new feelings to me, new to this extent anyway- Yes I have felt these feelings before but not all at once and definitely not this hard. In the past few weeks I went through a serious break down in all aspects of my life and I honestly was just lost, not only did I feel lonely but I felt alone, feeling lonely and being alone are two complete different things, feeling alone is something I NEVER want anyone to feel so if you think you're alone, you're not because I am here fighting with you. Sadly I allowed myself to feel alone because I pushed everyone away and I started to feel sorry for my myself, not only did I let myself down but I let the people around me down and that's what cut me up 10x harder.
Many times I feel we are so quick to scrape amongst the surface and so afraid to accept what is going on in our lives, I lied to myself for many months that I was happy, I felt the idea of happiness but I did not feel happiness and 4 months into 2016, I did not feel happiness. I feel we are thrown in situations to not just go through it but to grow through it, we are put through situations to accept our truth because at the end of the day if you don't reject the lie, the lie will reject you, the situation I faced in my life recently has patterned me and shaped me differently, not only do I look at life differently but I look at people differently. I was told sometimes when things are going so good for you, you appreciate but you only appreciate them because they're good so when will you have time to appreciate it if things go bad, things had to go completely left for me to truly count my blessings, not only have I learned to take one step at a time and count my blessings but I have I actually accepted that I am not okay, through accepting that I was not okay, I was able to just grow, I feel myself growing because I had to accept that I was at a standstill point first -
now if you are okay, then let's stop assuming others are, we ALWAYS do, it's a common human mistake to assume that someone is okay just because they haven't shown you they're not.. people fight so many battles and just because they're smiling, just because they're on Instagram and Facebook does not mean they're not broken too.. we need to stop assuming and start accepting - don't shut someone out because you're okay and don't shut someone out because you're not okay, if YOU are not okay and YOU know someone genuinely cares about you or a group of people do, let them in allow them to accept you're not okay too, due to anxiety and overthinking I actually started to doubt the loved ones around me due to trust issues, not only did I lose myself but I started to become dependent on one person, not only did I become dependent but I was in denial that I was dependent on them, I lied to myself and that was so deadly, I am not saying cut anyone out but learn to stand on your own two feet. Through talking to a close friend of mine I established that sometimes the best thing is not to think, but to feel...however you feel right now reading this, YOU act on those feelings..don't think, just feel.
if you are reading this and you feel you haven't been letting people in, you act on that feeling and let someone in.
if you are reading this and you feel you haven't been there for someone, you act on that feeling and you go be there for someone.
if you are reading this and you feel you haven't accepted your current situation, you go ahead and act on that feeling, accept your current situation.
I was in a dark dark dark place and only yesterday did I realise, your current situation is NOT your final destination.
I CAN DO IT, YOU CAN DO IT, WE CAN DO IT.
I am altruistic, I gain warmth from making others happy or helping them to happiness because happiness is a journey, not a destination...
if you are battling anything right now and you need help.. email me, I am going to put my personal email hayley.mule@gmail.com
whether you are battling something to do with faith, sexuality, self development, health, anything.. if you feel alone you're not because I won't let you be alone, i know how it feels to be lonely and I made a promise to God last night that I won't allow anyone I know to feel lonely ever again. Yesterday I let GO and let God, I was truthful to myself and truthful to God I am not okay but growth can be take place hand in hand, I don't have to grow alone and neither do you so if you need me.. I am here.
I hope this has touched one person today and allowed someone to accept their current situation.
Love and Blessings,
Hayls x
WOW.
It's actually been two months since I last blogged, I don't know how I allowed this to happen but it's happened. I was looking to take a break for about a week and then one week became two months, oh how time flies. Anyways I just wanted to tell you that I am back for this one post and then I will be taking my step back simply because I have accepted I am not 100% and I go by the motto you need to be 100, to give 100.
I love humans and I live by the policy of honesty, I will not lie to everyone and I certainly won't lie to myself and state that I am 100% when I am not and I respect everyone enough to know when it's best to cater to myself so I am able to come back and cater to more people stronger and wiser.
I feel a lot of us go through life dodging the simple question of 'how are you?'
Ask yourself that question and tell yourself your honest answer. why? because you deserve the truth.
Those 3 words are the most hard hitting words any one can ever face, why? because reality kicks in, your reality will kick in. We are at a stage in life when the world of social media has taken over and if you're not okay, you have to hide it but my brothers and sisters, I am writing to you to help you understand in order for you to be okay, you need to accept that you're not.
Not everyone will relate to this right now, some people will relate today, some will relate tomorrow but that doesn't matter, all that matters is someone will read it and accept their current situation and accept that they're not okay. If you know someone who is not okay today please send them this because they need to understand that sometimes we need to breakdown to break through. Do you know what? it took someone out of my comfort zone to tell me that I am not okay, I was blind to it, I didn't want to accept it but if you have someone in your life that has accepted that you're not okay, let them in because through acceptance is progress.
Recently I had a huge stumble, a stumble of faith within myself and self belief, not only did I lose myself but I gave up on my self, I broke down - Now I am not writing this blog post to tell you about my hardships, I am writing to you so you can accept and understand that it's okay not to be okay, many times we lie to ourselves and that is so deadly, deceiving ourselves into thinking we are okay, every single day you lie stating you are okay and the day you break you break HARD because you allowed it to build, build and build.
I feel many times people don't expect me to cry, break and feel pain because I am the motivational speaker, speaking greatness into existence and speaking life unto others but during this time I had to really start speaking life into myself. I was broken mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually, the feeling of numbness is something I have never felt before, the feeling of confusion, depression, anxiety, hatred and lack of faith were also new feelings to me, new to this extent anyway- Yes I have felt these feelings before but not all at once and definitely not this hard. In the past few weeks I went through a serious break down in all aspects of my life and I honestly was just lost, not only did I feel lonely but I felt alone, feeling lonely and being alone are two complete different things, feeling alone is something I NEVER want anyone to feel so if you think you're alone, you're not because I am here fighting with you. Sadly I allowed myself to feel alone because I pushed everyone away and I started to feel sorry for my myself, not only did I let myself down but I let the people around me down and that's what cut me up 10x harder.
Many times I feel we are so quick to scrape amongst the surface and so afraid to accept what is going on in our lives, I lied to myself for many months that I was happy, I felt the idea of happiness but I did not feel happiness and 4 months into 2016, I did not feel happiness. I feel we are thrown in situations to not just go through it but to grow through it, we are put through situations to accept our truth because at the end of the day if you don't reject the lie, the lie will reject you, the situation I faced in my life recently has patterned me and shaped me differently, not only do I look at life differently but I look at people differently. I was told sometimes when things are going so good for you, you appreciate but you only appreciate them because they're good so when will you have time to appreciate it if things go bad, things had to go completely left for me to truly count my blessings, not only have I learned to take one step at a time and count my blessings but I have I actually accepted that I am not okay, through accepting that I was not okay, I was able to just grow, I feel myself growing because I had to accept that I was at a standstill point first -
now if you are okay, then let's stop assuming others are, we ALWAYS do, it's a common human mistake to assume that someone is okay just because they haven't shown you they're not.. people fight so many battles and just because they're smiling, just because they're on Instagram and Facebook does not mean they're not broken too.. we need to stop assuming and start accepting - don't shut someone out because you're okay and don't shut someone out because you're not okay, if YOU are not okay and YOU know someone genuinely cares about you or a group of people do, let them in allow them to accept you're not okay too, due to anxiety and overthinking I actually started to doubt the loved ones around me due to trust issues, not only did I lose myself but I started to become dependent on one person, not only did I become dependent but I was in denial that I was dependent on them, I lied to myself and that was so deadly, I am not saying cut anyone out but learn to stand on your own two feet. Through talking to a close friend of mine I established that sometimes the best thing is not to think, but to feel...however you feel right now reading this, YOU act on those feelings..don't think, just feel.
if you are reading this and you feel you haven't been letting people in, you act on that feeling and let someone in.
if you are reading this and you feel you haven't been there for someone, you act on that feeling and you go be there for someone.
if you are reading this and you feel you haven't accepted your current situation, you go ahead and act on that feeling, accept your current situation.
I was in a dark dark dark place and only yesterday did I realise, your current situation is NOT your final destination.
I CAN DO IT, YOU CAN DO IT, WE CAN DO IT.
I am altruistic, I gain warmth from making others happy or helping them to happiness because happiness is a journey, not a destination...if you are battling anything right now and you need help.. email me, I am going to put my personal email hayley.mule@gmail.com
whether you are battling something to do with faith, sexuality, self development, health, anything.. if you feel alone you're not because I won't let you be alone, i know how it feels to be lonely and I made a promise to God last night that I won't allow anyone I know to feel lonely ever again. Yesterday I let GO and let God, I was truthful to myself and truthful to God I am not okay but growth can be take place hand in hand, I don't have to grow alone and neither do you so if you need me.. I am here.
I hope this has touched one person today and allowed someone to accept their current situation.
Love and Blessings,
Hayls x
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